Starting in my early 20s I was in a relationship for 8 years. The first four of those we had amazing sex, we filmed ourselves doing it often. We got a rush from doing it in public places risking getting noticed such as clubs, rest areas, beaches. After our first child was born, our sex life changed to the other extreme. No sex at all. To this day I’m not sure what exactly happened but the fact is my ex quit loving me. She became distant and defensive. A lot happened the last year we were together, her father passed away, she got fired at her job and she found ways to blame me for just about everything. We got divorced and I begun dating again two years later. I found a nice girl and I ended up marrying her two years after that. Sex was never great. She does not like giving or getting oral sex, hates the idea of filming during sex, and has no interest in having sex in public spaces. However, she is very predictable and steady. We’ve been together 5 years now and have had a child. We have sex twice a week on average and it’s nothing to write home about but it gets the job done. I do miss the wild, risky sex I had with my ex in my 20s. I know deep inside that the honesty and commitment I have in my current partner far outweighs the fun I had but I miss so much the high highs I had while having crazy sex with my ex. I sure hope that the yearning goes away over time, or that I come to understand why I placed so much value on that wild unrestrained sex. Thoughts?