i had my monthly 1 on 1 meeting with my sup at work this morning, i spent a good 10 minutes of the 30-minute call talking about "the thing" because her daughter got one not long ago, and she was telling me about her experience. it was good to hear another (almost) first-hand account, this one mostly positive, allayed my fears/anxiety a bit. just the talking about it helps actually. i guess i just need to keep talking about it. part of the problem is the waiting, the "negative anticipation" i guess you'd call it, oh wait I just googled it it's actually called "anticipatory anxiety" - having all this time to worry/be anxious about it. well at least December 5 is less than a month away now. Trying to do my CoDA step and turn it over to the care of God as I understand God but boy am I failing at this step.... waiting to hear back from my primary doc about the possible change to my thyroid meds, and if he doesn't want to change them, then i'll ask the other doc for the anxiety meds he offered.

Meanwhile, we got a new dishwasher put in a couple days ago cuz the old one carped out, and I ran it last night, and (of course) it leaked a bunch of water underneath the sink somehow during the night and I had a big mess to clean up this morning. They're coming out to fix it next Monday. So I'll be hand washing until then, no biggie I suppose. Just annoying that they messed up the install.