So, you're in your mid-thirities now?
I've been involved with the Lifestyle and BDSM. I'm celibate now, but if I were to enter into another relationship, it would need to be open... but, alas, I'm getting long in the tooth, so I'd probably settle for cocoa. haha
From my p-o-v, if you liked what you experienced, you're probably always going to think about it from time to time.