I had my fifth ketamine infusion today. The clinic has been increasing the dosage and now I'm just 0.05mg/kg under the maximum.

It was an intense session, lots of colors, thoughts, lights and spinning. It's such an odd feeling being outside myself and inside myself at the same time.

I'm totally relaxed during the session and I'm not scared because I know I'm safe. Despite that, I had to focus on my breathing a number of times to stay calm and relaxed.

Three more sessions to go. Hopefully I see some positive effects from all this.

I'm still a little dizzy but that should pass within several more hours.