I think a lot of this stuff is about our own perception.

One of my closest friends (I don’t have many) has been seriously unwell recently. I was very scared of losing her. I don’t mean losing her friendship I mean actually losing her altogether and the thought was unbearable to me.

I look back at my earlier posts and think I was skewed when I thought friendships weren’t for me - this woman has been part of my life for 8 years and yet somehow I wasn’t counting her… not sure why. We don’t see each other often, there’s literal miles between us and we’ve both got families and busy lives but she’s always consistently there for me.

I think I have had some kind of cognitive distortion going on.