I don't know what it is, but I seem to have a bit of a thing of Dr's just disappearing. It hasn't happened a whole lot, because I don't have a lot of Dr's, but it's happened enough that it's frustrating.

My very first psychiatrist disappeared after I'd been seeing her for about a year. She literally called in a year's worth of refills on my meds and vanished - the hospital she was with couldn't or wouldn't tell me what had happened to her. She did resurface after a year, but by then I'd moved on to psychiatrist 2.

Psychiatrist 2 disappeared on me after I'd been her patient for about 5 years. At first I was told she was on sick leave - she'd had cancer - but the hospital hadn't done the normal arrange coverage for her. Then I heard that she'd left the hospital but I couldn't find out where she'd gone. I learned well after the fact that she'd left the hospital under less than ideal circumstances and under the negotiated terms of her departure she couldn't contact patients. The hospital did grudgingly connect me with psychiatrist 3 who I'm still seeing today.

Now it's my addiction Dr. who I've been seeing since 2007. She missed a couple of telephone appointments we had scheduled. After each missed appointment I left a message on her voice mail, saying "are you ok? call me" No call. When I left my last message I noticed that she'd changed her voice mail to remove all the instructions for setting up an appointment, requesting a meds refill etc. My next step is to call the clinic she works out of, but I'm not holding my breath for helpful info. What would have been helpful would have been a phone call explaining the first missed appointment. In some ways this is no biggie as I'd been contemplating stopping seeing her as my addiction is pretty much under control at the moment. But this disappearing with no explanation is so unprofessional and leaves me wondering if she is ok which stresses me out. And this of course also brings up a whole bunch of abandonment trauma which I thought I'd dealt with, but clearly haven't.

Thanks for letting me vent.