I have a long history of broken friendships and relationships. I'm a lot older now and I've actually been married for 22 years, which is miraculous, even though it continues to be a rocky road.

But my pattern of abruptly ending friendships continues. And I'm very isolated socially. I've had friends, of course, but the typical scenario is that something will happen - or they will do something - where I feel very hurt and then I will cut all ties with that person. I'll either have an actual falling out/argument, or I'll just withdraw and not have any more contact with them.

This has happened so many times in my life. I know it's classic Borderline Personality Disorder but I've been unable to do much about it. Largely it is due to my over-sensitivity, specifically around feeling rejected. Often my feelings are off base and an over-reaction. But the the feelings are very real and very intense and they cloud my judgement completely.

I can feel it's about to happen again. Yesterday I felt really hurt about something a friend had posted on social media: about a get together they had had and my husband and I hadn't been invited (they are mutual friends of mine and my husband's). I feel out of all proportion hurt and upset about this. I feel incredibly rejected. I know this is another classic BPD trait. This one runs really deep for me and the feelings that come up are extremely powerful.

I asked my husband (who does not have Borderline Personality Disorder) if he felt upset that we hadn't been invited and he said he didn't feel upset by it. I told him I felt like withdrawing from the friendship with them and not going to an event this person has invited us to in a couple of weeks. My husband is encouraging me not to do that and to go to the other event as planned (because it's not just one person I'm upset with, it's the whole group by association).

But I am pissed. And I feel hurt and rejected. And I can tell myself I'm over-reacting (and I know intellectually that I am over-reacting), but that doesn't make the intense feelings go away. Inside my belly and my chest there is now a burning feeling of anger and hurt and once it catches fire like this it doesn't tend to go away. It continues to burn. And typically this leads to me ending the friendship. Or just withdrawing to a point where it ends naturally. And that's it. I don't look back and that friendship is over forever.

I'm already isolated and I know it's not a good idea to cut even more people out of my life. I don't even see these people very much as it is. But these feelings are really difficult to manage. And they are eating away at me.

Just wanted to express that somewhere where others might understand. Thanks!