My depression is so bad again. I have other diagnoses besides MDD, but it's the MDD that is really kicking my butt right now. My self-esteem is currently zero. Actually, less than zero. I want to crawl under a rock until my mood lifts again, but this is not a good time for me to have another major depressive episode.

I was doing okish with my new add on medication but then something in real life happened to cause my depression to flare up badly again. I've given up trying to explain the soul-crushing experience that is MDD to anyone that hasn't gone through it themselves, but I'm also sick of trying to pretend that I'm fine when I'm so very far from it. Now, if anyone asks I just say I'm unwell and leave it at that. lt's true after all.

Grateful to have a place here to express how I feel without having to explain or justify it. Thank you.