Hey guys, I've been doing decently well the past month. I've been trying to consume myself in work which maybe isn't the best but better than not going to work and staying home. I finished moving in but haven't unpacked much. Also found out that my ex I recently broke up with was abusing oxy and fentanyl the entire time we were together so I have been kind of spiraling since I found that out and since then I have been having nightmare consistently for the past year. I know it wasn't my fault he did what he did but he tried turning it on me so I have completely cut off contact and I have been making time to be with my mom and sisters at least twice a week which has helped much. It's just hard having nightmares every time I go to sleep even for naps and being exhausted has just been making things worse. I'm still trying to be optimistic but I can tell I'm leaning back into some manic behaviors even though I don't see them as bad because I've been restraining them. This will be a good month.