likewise, i am glad you haven't followed through.
(((((((((lyn))))))))) the first time it was an automatic reaction of being abused. You probably didn't have the intention then to cut - it just happened and the result was that you didn't have to "stay" there.

Hon, would it really do you good to remind yourself of that by using those again? It seems like that would somehow be more abusive than usual cutting because of the association =(

please stay safe. tc kiya