I haven't been on here very much recently. I went home for a long visit and saw just tons of people - good people -that I hadn't in years. A lot of folks who knew before my BP onset in my early 20s and subsequent bouts with addiction.

It was so validating ! Then I came home to a very unsatisfying prolonged job search and got depressed for the last week. I wouldn't leave the house and was feeling very surly. Yuck.

Out of the blue I get an email from a community college here inviting me to a webinar for employment training cert programs. I attended and decided Iam going to build on my career as a massage therapist (I don't practice since Covid) and become a Certified Medical Asst. I think I can get behind this as it is helping people and varied work. I do well in school and by the end of March 24 will be certified. There are tons of jobs and this shouldn't be so challenging for me going forward now.

I had to write tonight because it feels like a ton of bricks has been taken off my shoulders. This aspect of my life was very affected by bp EPISODES and I have some more acceptance work to do around this. I know as a BP I do better in routine and finally I can feel context and calm returning. ! '~)