Well, I found this posted by me at the 23 September this year (almost 6 weeks ago): "Originally Posted by Rosi700: I have tried to push it away (the sadness, the tiredness, the no-motivation "thing"), as if it is some sort of a will-sake.

Depression isn't that! (...)

I think I need to accept that depression has caught me even if I didn't want it so."

So it is, people whom suffer from some sort of mental disorder have to be very flexible. One day one is fine and then, in the next, one has to surrender to an illness who doesn't ask what one wants.

The only thing one can do, is to accept that so it is and then try to use one's coping tools as best one can.

It is past midday here. I am still taking it easy. I have rested and had a meal. I will now take a shower before I go out to buy groceries and I will have my dinner at a restaurant this day; will be kind to myself.

My goal is to come back to normal as quick as possible, but I will not forget to give my body rest when it needs it ...

I am not going to speculate about trigger/-s, only walk my way back to how I want my life to be. I know my tools.

Thank you for reading! It helps on "the road" to talk about it. I have no other place I can do that then here.

Be well, all!