I'm surprised my sister and brother let me do whatever I want and not be a guardian or whatever it's called. Years ago my psychologist diagnosed me with SA and ASD among others. They know my psychologist forced me into a psych ward for attempt to end myself. Often I've just wanted to live in one of those places that take care of you. I get so deathly tired of making bad decisions, the voices in my head, loneliness, psychosis, being such a misfit, etc .