A good person feels very uncomfortable dealing with a person who is selfish in the ways you have shared. In the past your feelings were met with dismissal and negativity. Good people do not behave this way and say they love you, that is warped delusional thinking.
The damage you have experienced is bad enough, add to that the damage and hurt your child has experienced is horrific and totally heartless and selfish on his part.
I find that words cannot describe the depth of disappointment when someone we love behaved in such hurtful selfish ways.
Itís understandable that you vented some deep hurts his actions caused you to feel. Donít beat yourself up for venting. Just know that your venting was for yourself and part of your path towards gaining your power back.