Lol, I have been posting here a lot recently and I appreciate the advice in any case so it's okay. Personally, I can't even tell if I'm putting too much pressure on myself..I mean my family and the way they work is pretty much all I know. There are mental health services available that I'm sure I could try at my college. However, I've not had the best experiences with therapy and the times I've tried to take advantage of talking to a stranger, I just can't make myself get the words out. I could probably literally be dying one day somehow and if someone asked me if I was okay, I'd have to say, "oh I'm fine, everything's fine!". I hate it..but it's like I think about everything people have done for me and I just zip up and won't let myself say anything that might sound like a complaint of any kind.

But I'll try and take your advice and try and at least scope out potential resources if I can gather some courage..