Hi,
I recently started intensive trauma therapy for my PTSD and it's hitting me really hard - a lot harder than I anticipated.
The first thing I noticed is that I'm a lot more irritable than normal at work. Then I noticed that I was having pretty strong urges to SI, which I haven't done in over 11 years so not about to restart that. And today I just realized that I am really angry, not at anyone in particular, I'm just angry at the world in general.
I know these are old emotions that are resurfacing so I am able to remain somewhat detached from them. I just know I really need to ramp up my self care activities. I'm also thinking of cutting my hours at work since I work in a really emotionally intense job and I'm finding working close to full time and therapy is a bit much for me.
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