thank you guys. but i gone to a doctor about this. it just open doors that i wish to keep close. and coming on here does help. i can see what makes me unhappy and i have to do something about that and yes i am going to see my doctor very soon. but you know most of the times it isn't the depression that makes us unhappy. it is those around you that make you unhappy and not having a job and those hurting you and those who push you. i have two people dieing in my life with cancer and last year i seen enough people passaway to make me think about life. but thank you again.