The roller coaster of highs and lows every day is so exhausting. And then waking up in the morning feeling like I have been wasting my life and I need to get everything together is even more exhausting. Thankfully I have today off and I'm just going to channel that into trying to clean and be productive because I have been a mess and haven't done anything like that in the past month. My mom is still being so supportive and trying to help me which I am really thankful for but none of my friends get it and having to completely change my lifestyle is so scary even though it's for the better and it feels even more sad that I am struggling to be ok with that but also I can't keep living my life like this :/