To avoid a lot of platitudes and unnecessary details, I will keep this fairly simple.

I have significantly damaged my life. I am slowly accepting this new state of things and have a real drive and desire to move forward, however knowing that my life will never be what it could have been is a constant drain on me. I've learned a great deal from this experience, I'm slowly forgiving myself and I'm taking steps to rebuild.

So, how do I become okay with what I've lost? This will negatively affect the rest of my life in almost every way. How do I shut out the constant comparison to what I had/could have had? How do I not beat myself up all over again every time a consequence comes rolling in? How do I not get defeated knowing I'm always living less of a life?