But we do get to the deeper stuff. Would she really prefer:
"How have you been?" or "what do you want to talk about today?"
"The only calories I've been taking in are the instant breakafasts S makes me drink and if I see him put protein powder in them or use milk instead of hot water I purge them, but I also eat 2-4 tbsp of pb a day on a good day and about half a cup of yogurt sometimes too. I would like to know how to step into the kitchen without winding up on the floor bawling my eyes out. It's really freaking S out. I read this article online, not sure how legit it was, but it was on the cause of eating disorders and it was all about how your needs were not met in some way in childhood and it had me crying because all I could think about was the days of my dad passed out on the couch, my mom at work, my aunt taking care of me until she sui'd, and then my grandma doing her best while being sick and trying to take care of my sick grandpa and my disabled uncle...fast farward a couple years neighbor grooms me and we all know where that goes, friend says to tell parents, I tell parents, mom just says "well, what do you want me to do about it?" dad's busy resetting the alarm clock for 6 hours straight and ends up in his own psychosis-withdrawal. I never thought about that bit until I was on a walk the other day and saw a meth pipe on the ground and a green ford drove by and I completely broke down in tears on the side of the highway like I feel like I'm about to do right now because it's not fair that the only one to protect me when I was a wee lil one was protecting a dozen other people too."