So I finished my last ketamine infusion and things are not good. They have me complete an assessment before each session and my scores have gotten worse, not better.

So now I'll meet with the consulting psychiatrist to figure out if ketamine is for me.

I did have a delayed reaction after my first 4 infusions this past summer, so there's a chance that I'll see something similar now that I have finished 8 more infusions.

I'm already thinking of a next step...maybe ECT? rTms? Accept that I'll have to live depressed and anxious?