(((((((((Nightbird)))))))))
Thank you for the kind words. Your posts are always so thoughtful and wise. I'm trying my best to forge ahead with a positive attitude, but my emotions behave much like a chameleon: changing to match their surroundings. Home is a very dark, depressing, hopeless place for me, so in turn I feel dark, depressed, and hopeless. I think that's why I love walking so much; it gets me as far away from here as possible.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm being sucked down as if in a vortex. the harder I try to escape, it seems, the worse I feel... Perhaps I should just stop resisting the current for a while and simply observe my emotions? Hmm...
Thanks so much,
J
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"One by one, as they march, our comrades vanish from our sight, seized by the silent orders of omnipotent death. Very brief is the time in which we can help them, in which their happiness or misery is decided. Be it ours to shed sunshine on their path, to lighten their sorrows by the balm of sympathy, to give them the pure joy of a never-tiring affection, to stregthen failing courage, to instill faith in hours of despair."
-Bertrand Russell
With love and hope,
<~/J\~>
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