Dear T,
That was totally (negative) maternal transference coming out today. Where it just felt like you said, "You did it wrong." I found that I kept forcing myself to look into your eyes during that part of session. I was thinking after that maybe it was to reassure myself that it was you in there, and not my mom. And to feel the caring in them (which I did feel, after feeling what I interpreted as criticism/judgment initially).
I did appreciate your tissue box comment, how "we're at that point in the relationship." Felt connecting. Plus it was probably something that no one else outside the room would understand.
Love,
LT
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