I'm still mostly mildly depressed but a couple of times over the past few weeks i've had flickers of good feelings. Tonight it's so strong i'm actually feeling that it's kind of nice to be alive! I almost never feel this way. I had a spectacular game of Scrabble that i worked hard for, took a shower, and am now listening to my favorite tunes.

I'm feeling how nice it is to be older and accept myself. Like accepting that i don't like parties and staying away from the one i'm invited to tomorrow. I have the luxury to do as i please and not have to answer to anyone. Most people call it loneliness, but i call it solitude!

I'm also feeling better about the two times i got my heart broken. These things happened to ME, i feel, and they are MY experiences. I have them all to myself. I loved, and lost, and lived to tell about it!

Aces!