UGH - feeling sooooooooooooo sick. Binged a lot today. Why do i do this to myself? I gotta stop this. i have feeling this bad and i know i did it to myself. and will probably do it again.
why? do i hate myself? do i .... i dunno! supposedly i have the power to stop it.... what keeps me from it? instant gratification? feeling like being skinny gets me seen where as not being skinny makes me more invisible? and being seen is dangerous? that used to be the case, but i dunno if that is true any more. doesn't feel true. so why do it? i gotta work on this one.