I'm in an odd state as I have come to accept the full hopelessness of my situation, I have become more at peace. I feel very light and calm, I sleep well, I wake up feeling like everything is good. Is this denial?

Even when I really think about how bad my situation is, I get a small sense of anxiety, but it doesn't take hold. I'm glad for the comfort, but confused by it. All of my fight is gone. I think this might be dangerous. I think it might be resignation and giving up.

It just feels so odd to feel so good. I truly see no way out of this, not with someone actively working against me and willing to do anything to stop me. Maybe this is a gift? My mind's way of giving me some peace? Should I fight this?