I'm so disenchanted with therapy right now. He's off for another week again. It feels like he just got back. It feels like with our recent rupture he unilaterally changed the operating parameters of our relationship. I'm feeling pretty discouraged by that. He keeps reminding me that emails are for scheduling or requests for support. Not out of the blue, just when it comes up. I feel like I'd be better off completely alone and I just want to quit. Not sure how to quit by email though since emails are only about scheduling or requests for support. I hate the holidays. Bah humbug.