Thanksgiving ****ing sucked! It turned into binging, which turned into purging and cutting. I tried the self care thing my therapist always says when I'm going into difficult situations (take out, dinners, etc) but I was literally purging in the shower and self harming listening to music so I need better ways to self care.

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edit: I'M GONNA GET BETTTER!!!
Next week. It's gonna start with a banana. Half a banana. In a smoothie.