nothemama8
as i become psychotic, i hallucinate and hear my name being called, i become paranoid, and delusional..... i become aware of something inside, it takes the form of another me, and she is extremely sinister, she moves toward a switch in my head and when she flips the switch i space out.. and then suddenly i am looking at the world from inside myself and i am unable to control her actions ...... she is in control of me and i am aware of her... i dont think she is aware of me at all but i dont know what she thinks at this very moment...
i called her mayhem in the forums before cuz thats what she causes....
but my doctor said it is part of my bipolar disorder.