Feeling like I've been hit with depression lately. I've been doing OK for a while with an occasional bout of it. But now I'm feeling a hit of depression mostly because I'm dreading the future. Like bad things are going to happen and I'll be alone and helpless when the bad times come. And I'm thinking a lot about the end of life for me, though others tell me I'm far from it.

When I was much younger, I had more enthusiasm and positive thinking about the future. And I was happy day-to-day. But now I don't feel like I used to. And yet there are times when I should be the happiest person around; and even things now are better than in the past. So why do I feel so depressed and anxious?