I started with one literally minutes after i went to sleep, i dreamed of Ebony on the vet table on her last day with me, i hope to crap she knew i was there cause by that point she was blind and deaf

She was having fits on her last night, kept walking in circles, although i still dont know how she lived another 4 years after the vet had basically said she would be dead in 2 years, medically thats what they expected of her

She was never going to live a normal life cause when they saw her when she got rescued they didnt originally think she would live at all, then they decided she could live for 2 years then she fought and could get rehomed and lived for 4 years 2 months and a day, from the day i took her on

How do i stop my stupid brain from replaying how she died, in my sleep?