Wow. sorry, to hear that. but sadly the world moves on. only reason i say that is bc if ur not ready to move on with the world then it'll pass u by without even a glance back. now, im not saying to forget ut T, far from it. u need to remember her. let her live on in ur heart and memories. also, remember how she inspired u to be a T just like her. if u really want to be a T then do it. and everyday when ur helping others, ur T can live through u, continuing to help others. im just trying to help u move on but keep her in u like a blazing flame as a source of inspiration and determination. use this as a strength.go face the world with her in ur heart and mind. bc with her within u, u are never alone. i really hope this helped. best of luck to u.