Totally understand the trust thing. It's hard with someone new. Nevertheless, it sounds like it was a productive appointment. Even if you didn't get everything out, seems like you told him a lot anyways, and I'm proud of you for that

Do not fear calling, texting, or online chatting with 988 if you need to. When I'm pissed at the ACT team I go to them and they don't really give advise, but it's good to get things out and get immediate responses and validation from someone.