I've had four all nighters in the past week and the other nights I've slept 40mins-3.5 hours, so yeah, I need some ******* sleep before I become a serious threat to myself or others if I'm not already there yet (and last night made me think I am but maybe my roommate is just prone to violent words). I was like "fk this" and howled with the coyotes at the moon last night.

Anyways.

I obviously can't do any med changes because I guess my pharmacy runs a month or two behind where the docs are at. Pdoc raised my Belsomra from 5mg to 15mg and raised my Abilify to 25mg because I'm in a "psychotic depression." (**** her opinion but yeah, I guess if being depressed and having tactile hallucinations makes a psychotic depression even if the tactile hallucinations aren't a "break from reality schizoaffective psychosis" and rather feel like I was just sleeping in various crisis centers and shelters and they're probably real and I probably actually do have bugs on me and I'm also probably having flashbacks to when I WAS HAVING HANDS ON ME because that's what we were talking about at the pdoc appointment!) but I guess those changes won't be in effect intil next month

What kind of schedule should I have for the day? I don't use any screens after dinner until I decide "screw it, no hope for sleep." No caffeine after noon. I start winding down around 8 and lay down by 9:30.