We're ****ed. We needed 4 brand new tires. There went the money to get him home and our bill money. Luckily we were able to pay rent and insurance. But everything else just needs to wait.

We have inspection on the 5th. Can't do most clean up, can't hire someone, going to fail. I had to buy a dog cage because I have my pdoc appointment that day. Victoria's room just has a path to her bed and computer.

My meds have to change because my heart's having an issue. I'm running out of choices. I'm having trouble eating.

Things were looking up down south but my nephew just got dropped as a patient. So now we're scrambling to find him a new team that can see him ASAP. So it maybe 2+ months before I see my husband again. 3+ months without a proper shower. I'm taking sponge baths but it's not the same. Victoria isn't helping as much as I need her too so I'm eating meals I can just heat alone. It's not her fault. She's trying but she has a life too.

I'm trying to be positive but I'm so beaten down. I wanted to order food today just so that's one less thing I have to worry about. Nothing fancy just a sandwich, can't. I've run out of things I can just heat up to eat, can't order more.

I don't want to rely on Victoria because I don't think she can take on much more. She's dealing with the end of the semester and everything is she doesn't finish she gets kicked out of the program. So these next weeks are important.

I'm still having anxiety over unrealistic thoughts and now all this.