The appointment with the nurse from my insurance company went well. I hadn't taken a shower in 2 days or brushed my teeth, but I didn't care because I felt like crap. So I went in the living room with no hat or shoes on not caring what I looked like. We went through some basic health questions then she looked at my meds and commented how rare it is to be on prescribed valium these days. She asked if I took anything else. I said oh "yeah theres the injections I take." Which I keep in a cupboard. She got all confused and said "why do you take T are your levels low?" And I said "um, no. I'm transgender." And she just said "oh ok." Without missing a beat and we went on. It was a fairly easy $100 Walmart gift card.

Today for once I feel good. I didn't take my metformin and the nurse said my stomach issues could be caused by that. She described it as a "weed wracker on your stomach." Idk. I just know today was a good day.

I have PT in the morning and I think shes going to be pretty tough on me. I just can't do the stomach breathing. My chest is numb from my surgery 3 years ago so its pretty much impossible for me to "feel" how I'm breathing. Shes nice, but you know, shes a regular physical therapist and they are hard are on their patients.

I am down 5 pounds just from eating less. I should lose about 48 more pounds to get to a normal BMI. My mom thinks its a lot and said to me "you don't want to look like Elliot whatshisname."