I've gotten more depressed. I can't even remember whether I left my house yesterday or not. I don't think I did. Today I've managed to get from the bed to the living room couch. I got kind of weepy a little while ago. Then I got over that.

I joined this website over 12 years ago. I've put up threads before where I complained about being in a depressive episode. I try to not do it too often, but longstanding members who are active in the threads about depression have seen me post before about being in a bad tailspin. I guess it gets repetitive. It probably looks like I make no progress. No one wants to try and fill a bottomless pit of neediness. I'm not presenting a concrete problem that others can offer solutions for. So I should give up hoping for more responses. I know I can't solve my problem online. Maybe that's the message.