Starting around 11 last night and going until about half an hour ago I took 12 mg of Ativan and boiiiiiiiii do I feel ****ed up (I thin kthere was some melatonin involved too)
I could ask for a phone appointment, but I know she gets frustrated when I can't think right on those. we're determining if I should get into an eating disorder PHP. I'll write down stufff ahead of time so I'm just not rambling about how S gave me emotional flah backs and now I fear I'm going to be policed and lose control that i don't haveee and fear of gaining weight and stuff

I haee a feelig this is mostly waht the season will be on beause last session was ont his and my case management was on it. Also, my brain is FRIED and it's virtual so idk if I'll be able to stick with 6 hours on some sort of technology without musuc and having to ge tupto do other stuff like laundry and say hi to my preety girl fhlorie