Hi @Rose76 , I've only just found this thread, so I hope it's okay to respond.
I'm sorry you are currently in a depressive tailspin. You know from previous experience that it will eventually pass, but of course that doesn't help while you are stuck in the middle of it, when it feels relentless and never-ending.

Re ways to help you get involved in something that will lift your spirits a little. A couple of brief ideas that come to mind:
Take a short I.T. class to bring your computer skills up to scratch, and maybe then concentrate on your writing, or take further classes in other areas that might interest you.
You have a lot of empathy and compassion for other people, what about using that in a charity setting, perhaps a helpline or drop in centre that needs volunteers.
Maybe these won't be right for you, but thinking about it may give you some other avenues to explore.

I can relate to the feeling of not wanting to socialise, not wanting to go out or talk to anyone, sometimes for days on end. Of just not being able to be bothered with anything. Being at the bottom of the depressive pit is hard, so don't beat yourself up, because if it were that easy to pull ourselves out of it, none of us would be depressed....! I nearly always feel a little better when I've forced myself to achieve something during the day, but often can't find the energy or the motivation to actually do it. You're not alone in feeling like this.

There's nothing wrong in posting that you feel miserable and hoping someone responds. We all need to just be heard and have another person acknowledge us where we're at sometimes.

Sending kind thoughts.
East

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