before anyone says anything I WILL DIE BEFORE GOING TO THE HOSPITAL

so i dont remember but i was struggling so I tried calling my team's on-call. They call back within 15 minutes. No call. THen the message says to call NH Rapid response. On hold for 30+ minutes and I hang up. Trie act again. Nope. rapid resonse. Nope. 988. Chat with them for a bit but they're just like "whyyyy is act not talking to you and do you have any other supports? (lol no, I am fighting or NC with EVERYONE).

Ive been abusing benzos anda i think some benzos i took this morning had some of the good ole zombie drug in it because i am fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuked. also I need stitches but I just took some tape to it so that works too.
there isnt much help, but virtual programs can be good sometimes right because vodic isnt all because now we have virtual and I'm going to ask my case manager tomorrow to do the php she's been wanting me to do for a while.

I don't even remember my Friday therapy appointment. I knkow I fell