Oh I totalllyyy know how you feel!
Its like if you dont eat it, you feel like you have almost deprived yourself, and then can't stop thinking about it for the next hour or so. Its crazy! But then if you do it, you feel like %#@&#! afterwards.
Atleast thats how it is for me.
I understand your lack of control also.
Its not fun to fight yourself and the cravings, believe me I know. But good luck with everything!