Then why does time and time prove that's the case?

If I didn't deserve it, surely Guy wouldn't constantly be saying "get out of the kitchen, you don't deserve any food." If I didn't deserve it, certainly S wouldn't be bringing over woman beaters. If I didn't deserve it, certainly I wouldn't have gone through years of abuse since when I was a wee little one. I clearly did something. I clearly have a drop of the Devil's blood in me and God has given me the training to know I DESERVE to be on the floor passed out or bed ridden or too sore to move or "ohh, can't move in that direction or the tape will fall off and we don't need another blood bath in here." I'm doing God's work here, and I know you guys are acting concerned, but that's becauase you don't know me. Like I said. Devil's blood.