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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots
Then why does time and time prove that's the case?
If I didn't deserve it, surely Guy wouldn't constantly be saying "get out of the kitchen, you don't deserve any food." If I didn't deserve it, certainly S wouldn't be bringing over woman beaters. If I didn't deserve it, certainly I wouldn't have gone through years of abuse since when I was a wee little one. I clearly did something. I clearly have a drop of the Devil's blood in me and God has given me the training to know I DESERVE to be on the floor passed out or bed ridden or too sore to move or "ohh, can't move in that direction or the tape will fall off and we don't need another blood bath in here." I'm doing God's work here, and I know you guys are acting concerned, but that's becauase you don't know me. Like I said. Devil's blood.
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That’s stinking thinking from your exhausted state of being. You do not have devil’s blood and you are worth getting better. You can’t see that because you are caught up in a vicious cycle. I know cause I used to think that way. I have the scars to prove it. The thing that helped me was getting to a safe place. In my case that was a domestic abuse shelter that had long term apartments and an excellent on site therapist. It wasn’t instantly a fix, but took long hard work. But having a safe place was the start.