Muddyboots no one deserves what you've been through. I don't care who they are. You need a safe caring place. It's not devils blood. It's people taking advantage and being cruel. It's not you it's a reflection of the people you're around. YOU don't deserve any of this. You deserve to be healthy, happy and Loved in a safe environment. You didn't cause this. Please reach out, think about residential. You deserve happiness.