I'm drowning, I can't do this. No one seems to care. I don't want to be hospitalized for Christmas. I don't want to be at my parents house with Victoria here. It could be two months+ before I see h again. We can't do this. I'm scared to tell h he has to come home because my nephew has no one. I don't know what to do. It's not like I'm unsafe but it's not going well.