Jak, it’s curious. I think and I experienced that self-confidence is very important for me. There’s a whole word of difference between how I felt in the past and my current situation. Since I gain self-esteem and more confidence I can live and have the strength to live and face to situations and events to which I would consider impossible to face in the past.
But, this is s very personal situation and consider that I’m not facing now to the challenges you are finding now, due to your age and such.

So, our current situations are not comparable. Anyway, I’m still glad that you don’t have the problems of lack of self-esteem I had when I was young.

As to your hand, let’s see how it is going those days, if you don’t find a complete recovery or at least, something close to a recovery, let’s try to see another neurologist.