you can do this. It's scary and unfair but you can. That part of your brain is just scared. You don't have to accept shittiness. I know eating is scary and the stress is real. Hell I don't even go into stores for food it's to stressful I do delivery. It does get better not perfect but better. My ED fuels my psychosis and my psychosis fuels my ED. So if they're not both under control I'm a mess. Just keep telling yourself you deserve to be happy, healthy and safe. Until your appointment. Because you do no but x, no yeah if you knew me you wouldn't say that. It's almost 2 hang on. You can do this.