I hate this never ending feeling that my life is hanging on by a thread. I have no money, just a little credit card left to get by. If one bad thing happens I'm a gonner!! Last week my car didn't start and I had already accepted my fate to the forest to fade away but my car insurance sent out someone and it only needed a jump start.

Today I broke the shower head and was expecting the airbnb home owner to kick me out. I'm so over all of this. This never ending terrifying fear and anxiety that soon I'll be homeless walking aimlessly in the forest. And there's no way I'm going to kill an animal to survive.

The clock's just ticking and I'm can't stand waiting for my fate to happen. Please whatever you are, the creator or whatever, could you please just get it over with?! I can't stand it anymore