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I am constantly anxious at work. There's still SO much to learn and it's a steep learning curve for me in almost every area of my job, which causes anxiety. I also am anxious over mistakes I continue to make.

For example, last week my boss came down on me a bit because I kept our agency partner on a call for 15 additional minutes to discuss an important issue. I felt she came down in me unnecessarily. It was my first time engaging more on this weekly call, I had a lot to cover, and it was all important. The agency partners told me it was ok to go over our time limit, so I didn't see why it was such a big deal.

My boss also erroneously thought that I would have a review at this point in time. I've been only full-time with the company for over one month! WHY would we conduct a review of my performance at this point?

I am concerned I will be let go from my job. I was basically fired from my last job because my skill set did not meet their needs, as they told me. I am SO anxious about performance, about screwing up, and about learning everything, that this is where my mind goes to.

I am starting to dislike this job. There are SO many meetings Mon-Thurs, that by the time Friday rolls around, I am completely burnt out. Fridays we work from home and have no meetings, so I slack off on those days. We work from home on Mondays too. Yesterday (Monday) I found myself slacking off as well due to burnout, anxiety, and not liking my job.

I cannot leave this job until 2025. I need longevity on my resume. Otherwise, it will look REALLY bad if I leave before I've even been there for a year. So I have to stick this out, UGH.

Every day I wake up incredibly anxious. I am not even sure if my boss likes me anymore. I feel like I am screwing up all the time. I don't feel like I am doing much that well.

This sucks.