yes... I have the same rage... hence my own thread... I can't say more Kiya.. because.. I would.. just be adding my pain to your pain.. and this is your thread... your opportunity to be heard...

I would like to see you shout it to the heavens... about how angry you feel... perhaps.. it would feel good to just scream.. and scream..
I haven't tried that.. so don't know..

my thoughts are with you...